Undescribed Human...

What I was thinking about right now is the conversation I had last night. It was an undeniable good-funny-heartbeat conversation that I’ve never felt for 2 years. He – who I never wanted to spell his name because sometimes I thought he’s not real – really made my world fell in a second. Why I thought he’s not real? It just because both of us didn’t realize when exactly we met, we talked, we started and ended up our conversation…it just like a river…flow as it was….we did it every time we had a time to talk. Anything we want to, we talked. And the best thing I ever realized was, I talked to him in YM…Yeah seems like this is virtual relationship. For the first time we talked, he’s so annoying but barely made me laugh again and again. I just feel my heart beat; I never thought there was other man except my ex that was so fuckin funny like him! Thanks GOD I fortunately forgot my ex hehehe.. Generally, he just messes up my day…really crushed me in pieces til I dunno what I feel…is this real? Is this some kind of something? Is this love? I dunno… I always miss his jokes, the way he treat me, the way he knows me, my habits even the bad, the way he makes me believe and certain, the way he talks…it’s just like an angel suddenly come to my pathethic-2-years-life-after-break-up, save me with anything he can do….Goddamn! who the hell is he actually!! I don’t expect anything…I don’t wanna wish anything… I just wanna enjoy this kindly strange meeting and conversation….If there’s something happen with us…I know our heart knows what to do….